It's been a while...

... and I'm due for a post.

I guess I have come to the conclusion that I am not a true blogger, but whatever. It's the lat thing on my priority list these days...

Anyway... I've had couple of busy past months, and now I'm doing nothing!

I worked for two and a half months, during which my Grandpa died and my Grandma moved into our house, as well as trying to start planning a wedding... I know I'm a bit of a sucky, but this was all a little bit stressful. So I gave up my job to plan a wedding and help my mom at home(which, I regret to say, hasn't been that much) for the last month I live at home.

That's kind of where I am now. It's been kind of a weird, good time.

So, the wedding planning is well on it's way, but we still don't have a place to live. We need to get on that. This post had been kind of all over the place, but I'll be more fluid...

It's raining right now, and it's not quite summer yet, so here's a painting called "spring rain" by Beth Robinson

I'm back!!

Okay. I now realize that I've lost a lot of my blog readers, which is sad, but very understandable. I have not been very interesting of late...

But do not fear!! I have my inspiration back!

It's almost spring time and that makes me so happy, even just the thought of it.

I was in Moose Jaw last week visiting Kelsey, and very close friend, and we went to the spa and we went out for coffee everyday, and we bought ourselves things we didn't really need and tot top it all off, the weather was above -5 C. the whole weekend, which always lifts my spirit at this time of year. I was truly happy to be there with her.

I realized last weekend that even being away from your everyday life for a few short days can really change the way you think about it. It dawned on me while sipping hot coffee and eating biscotti with someone I loved that I am really blessed. Seeing my life from literally the outside, made me think long and hard about where I am in it, at this moment, and one thought kept creeping into my mind, over and over again:

I'm content;

I love and am loved, deeply;

I have a family that supports me in every way (almost two now...);

I am connected to a community of people I can trust and have real, wholly relationships with and be blessed through them.

What more could I want?

I complained a lot about winter this year. I didn't like the cold nights, I didn't like the cold days. I didn't like my cold feet or my tense neck muscles. I hated sitting in freezing cold cars, I hated how even the sun was cold. And then I didn't like how I was thinking; cold, negative thoughts...

But then, a change. The weight lessens. The sun begins to produce heat again, the days are warmer. My neck relaxes, my face bares a smile. I walk past icicles dripping, and look around at people in sweatshirts and feel better. I am more relaxed and care free. I'm happy.

If I didn't go through those dark cold months of winter, I would never appreciate spring this much.

Motivation? 0%

motivation. i currently have none to write a post.

i'm sorry to all those who come out to enjoy the show. i am boring.

there are no real excuses, so i will not bore you with them.

but i will bore you with two double chins and a kiss!

Oh Man It's Been A While!!

Well, what can I say?



Christmas was great! Food was terrific! New Years was great! Food was terrific! And I miss Eggnog!

Okay, I'm not that obsessed with food. I am, however, obsessed with the fact that I can't eat anything anymore... this is a gross example, but about 4 years ago I used to be able to eat a BigMac, Super sized meal at McDonald's no problem. Last night I had some McDonald's and all I could eat was 1 cheeseburger, half of my medium fries and half a coke. And I was almost puking after that.

And that's a bad example because I don't actually eat that much McDonald's anymore, but I can't eat a lot of any kind of food, healthy or not. It's kind of good because I feel pretty healthy, but I don't actually know if I'm getting all the nutrients and carbs and whatever else I need to really be healthy...


Anyway, that's enough about that. I do actually have an announcement to tell you all:

Nick and I are Having a Coffee House!!!!

We are excited and I hope you are too!

There will be great desserts and beverages,

Super cool live music,

And awesome silent auction prizes!

Anyway, it takes place

Saturday February 16, 2008

Good News Fellowship Church

And starts at 7:30 pm!

So, I know it's a bit early to be telling you all about it, but I have to get the word out! And you should too. Tell all your friends. The Theme is Valentine's and it is sure to be a good night of eating, drinking and being merry!

Tired? At Christmas time??

What? Am I 70?

Usually at this time of year I am relaxed and caught up on my sleep, and anticpating Christmas Eve and Day. But today I am tired and not really relaxed and trying to figure out who's house I'm going to and when, and "helping" (quotation marks for my sisters) to plan a service while practicing for and playing with Don and my Dad every day this week! AND I'm still not done my shopping!

The gigs that Don fixed us up at were actaully really fun, but they take most of my energy, and three nights in a row is sure to waste anyone.

Anyway, I'm not going to actually relax until Christmas day, which is fine, but that's a little less then a week away... So, I'll take a short break in blogging, about a week, then I'll have great stories to share!

So until then, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

Ode to Egg Nog

well more like a farewell...

oh, egg nog.
smooth, creamy egg nog.
i will miss your rich flavour,
and comforting scent.
i will miss the joy you bring me
during this cold and dark winter.
as you sit in the fridge,
longing to be consumed,
i will, with much regret, close that
fridge door and try to live without you.

there will be times, yes, that i can
enjoy your delectable taste,
but one sip here, or one sip there is now
all that i take of your lactose-filled goodness
without having to pay the price
of no tolerance for you....

oh, egg nog!
this is my farewell
to drinking litres of you and enjoying every
last drop.
you will be missed,
but i know that i will one day take the pain
for you;
i will endure the consequences for your
soft, creamy satisfaction,
just to have you once more.

until then, farewell (sniff) egg nog.

it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...

I was driving home last night and all the Christmas lights on most houses were lit up and reflecting in the freshly falling snow... it was beautiful. I am surprised how every year I feel the same goofy, happy excitement flow through me, and it's never less than the year before.

Then I heard that the weather people say this is going to be one of the coldest winters yet. And if that's true, I know all I will remember this time next year is not my cold toes or harsh winds, or frozen locks, but my warm house with pretty lights, the wonderful scent of pine throughout the my house, full bellies, kind words, beautiful carols sung by my family and chocolate..... mmm Christmas chocolate is the best.

so with all that said, there are only 12 days left until I am free to indulge myself in all the above, and I hope it's not too long for the rest of you too...

Happy early Christmas everyone!

ohhhhhhh...... myyyy.......

so. driving home from minneapolis last night I was trying to relax and listen to jack johnson. I was trying not to think about the day before; the confusion, the stress, the anger, stupid second guessing, the gas that was wasted, not to mention the time..... if you have ever been lost before, I'm sure the last few sentence gave it away. anyway, back to jack johnson, the song "staple it together" came on and in one verse he says something like 'hate is such a strong word', and I would agree with it. and I also try not to use it unless I really mean it.

as of right now, I HATE MINNEAPOLIS.

I'm sorry to those who live there who probably think of it how think of my home city, but I have never been lost like that before. I'm sure that all my sisters will be blogging about this (and others who had similar experiences recently...) and all I can say is I will mostly agree with them on their rantings.

it will be a while before I go back, and all I can sum up from my tired mind are these little sayings...

BLAST YOU 694!!!!!

BLAST you FRANCE AVE!!!

BLAST YOU WHITE BEAR AVE!!!!

BLAST YOU 100!!! BLAST YOU ALL!!

oh and Snelling..... a BIG BLAST FOR YOU!!!!!

and for me sisters,

memorable quotes, from our weary and over wrought heads:

kim - "Hey look! Gas!" (<- meaning geese)

pam - "It would really suck if there was a highway on this interstate..."

cor - "I. Hate. John. Martin. Ave."

kim- "Oh tiger snails, zebra muscles, same thing..."

(and my favourite)

bec- "Yea, like, they don't have a skunk skwak--skwak--!"

and.... one lesson, of many, we learned:

'don't buy milk shakes on road trips... bad things happen...'

new coat! new coat!

well this was on sale and I really liked it, and I kind of needed a new one... kind of... but it was on sale!

anyway, I'm very happy with this purchase. I don't usually blog about the things I buy, but this was all I could think of at the moment.

I definitely don't look like that underneath... or let my mid rift show like that... or put excess amounts of lip shiner on, and I try not to take pictures of myself with my head cut off, but that's the jacket none the less. And I like it.

Ha Ha! I have conquered!

So, for all of you who didn't see me crying about this at church, I have lessened my load at school and feel about 88.7 times better than I did before. And just to clear up a little confusion, I didn't quit school altogether, I just dropped two out of the six I was taking, which is why I have the feeling of conquering something.... my own stubborness.

I don't feel that my decision is taking the "easy way out", on the contrary, actaully. I need to finish this degree in my own time, with the skills God has given me. I was lacking energy, and motivation and love for school, and I am just really tired of being at Prov. for so long; 3 and a half years (for someone who doesn't really enjoy "school") at this college is getting to me, and I need a break.



And on the brighter side, I have a wedding to plan! and songs to write! and music services to organize. All things to which I have passion and love and joy for! So why not do those things now? when they are so prominant in my life? School can wait for me, and I can wait for it. The thought of having a piece of paper with my accomplishments on it is cool, but for now I have most those accomplishments up here (I'm pointing to my head)!

So that's it. I feel great! and it's a Monday... go figure...

I think I'm happy.