I am truly blessed. I love my family :) Merry Christmas everyone!
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Happy Christmas
I am truly blessed. I love my family :) Merry Christmas everyone!
Friday, December 07, 2012
The Family Dog
Neko. We've had her as a part of our family for over 3 years now. It's hard to believe, really. Sometimes it feels like longer, especially this last month. The picture captures how we all (Nick, Neko, myself) feel about our current situation.
Neko has an abscess in her neck that was a result of stick-in-throat incident earlier this year. After the stick thing, her throat swelled up really bad, she went on anti-biotics, it got better, then a small abscess formed, then turned into a big one, then started draining itself... THEN she started scratching. And it got real bad.
She had surgery on it almost a month ago, and I can only laugh, and cry and laugh again when I think about how much this dog has been through. She's luckier than most people in the world... HOW DID IT COME TO THIS??!?!?
And the worst thing is, after the surgery the surgeon told us he didn't think he got all of the stick out, which has proven to be true. We are basically back at square one, and may have to do it all over again.
But, I don't know if we should. Nick absolutely loves her. He has already told me he doesn't want to give her up. I, on the other hand, don't want to give up my vacation money. I mean, I love the stupid dog, but how much do we have to sacrifice for her to just be healthy?? Again, HOW did it come to this?!
Half of me wants to be a responsible pet owner (and because she is a part of our little family) and do what's "right" in our crazy society: get the tests done to find the stupid stick, and get rid of it.
Then the other half of me wants to find a family who would love her, who have a big yard somewhere and who have $$$$ laying around and want to fix her all up.
Do I want to give up? Or do I want to be practical? Is this some kind of a lesson we are being taught? Or is it just that sometimes we makes dumb decisions in life, then we have to live with the consequences?
All this over a stupid dog we came to care so much about. It's not her fault......
I still don't know what to do.
Neko has an abscess in her neck that was a result of stick-in-throat incident earlier this year. After the stick thing, her throat swelled up really bad, she went on anti-biotics, it got better, then a small abscess formed, then turned into a big one, then started draining itself... THEN she started scratching. And it got real bad.
She had surgery on it almost a month ago, and I can only laugh, and cry and laugh again when I think about how much this dog has been through. She's luckier than most people in the world... HOW DID IT COME TO THIS??!?!?
And the worst thing is, after the surgery the surgeon told us he didn't think he got all of the stick out, which has proven to be true. We are basically back at square one, and may have to do it all over again.
But, I don't know if we should. Nick absolutely loves her. He has already told me he doesn't want to give her up. I, on the other hand, don't want to give up my vacation money. I mean, I love the stupid dog, but how much do we have to sacrifice for her to just be healthy?? Again, HOW did it come to this?!
Half of me wants to be a responsible pet owner (and because she is a part of our little family) and do what's "right" in our crazy society: get the tests done to find the stupid stick, and get rid of it.
Then the other half of me wants to find a family who would love her, who have a big yard somewhere and who have $$$$ laying around and want to fix her all up.
Do I want to give up? Or do I want to be practical? Is this some kind of a lesson we are being taught? Or is it just that sometimes we makes dumb decisions in life, then we have to live with the consequences?
All this over a stupid dog we came to care so much about. It's not her fault......
I still don't know what to do.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
The Stand Still
It's interesting when something drastic, shocking or painful happens in life, the world keeps turning. In birth, in death... It seems like the world should stop. At least for a moment.
I've experienced both. A nephew being born, a grandfather passing... Both experiences had a profound effect on me. I feel as though the world should have at least paused for a moment to witness a great loss, or a beautiful miracle. But it doesn't.
I remember my numb brain after deaths and births in my family, watching strangers go about their business, wanting to stop them in the street and and tell them "I have a nephew! Isn't it a miracle?!", or in frustration as grief swallows me, wanting to shake them and yell, "What's wrong with you?? My uncle just died!! How can you just keep walking around like nothing happened??"
It's uncomfortable, the stand still, whether good or bad there is tension. In the last 5 years there have been 4 births and 4 losses in our family. A lot of change, some easy, some hard. But change is the key... In the moment of the stand still there is no change. No progress. No rewind. At least, my world seems to slow to a stop. Until the shock subsides, and the wound starts to heal and the excitement starts to wear off. The busy strangers around me start to look normal again and I, myself start to feel normal. It's hard being in the middle of this all, but harder yet for me to watch others go through it, to be one of those "people" who seem to be living life as if nothing has happened, like nothing has altered life for the those involved.
Life goes on amidst the stand still, and I guess somehow we all make it through the worst, and look forward to the joy.
I've experienced both. A nephew being born, a grandfather passing... Both experiences had a profound effect on me. I feel as though the world should have at least paused for a moment to witness a great loss, or a beautiful miracle. But it doesn't.
I remember my numb brain after deaths and births in my family, watching strangers go about their business, wanting to stop them in the street and and tell them "I have a nephew! Isn't it a miracle?!", or in frustration as grief swallows me, wanting to shake them and yell, "What's wrong with you?? My uncle just died!! How can you just keep walking around like nothing happened??"
It's uncomfortable, the stand still, whether good or bad there is tension. In the last 5 years there have been 4 births and 4 losses in our family. A lot of change, some easy, some hard. But change is the key... In the moment of the stand still there is no change. No progress. No rewind. At least, my world seems to slow to a stop. Until the shock subsides, and the wound starts to heal and the excitement starts to wear off. The busy strangers around me start to look normal again and I, myself start to feel normal. It's hard being in the middle of this all, but harder yet for me to watch others go through it, to be one of those "people" who seem to be living life as if nothing has happened, like nothing has altered life for the those involved.
Life goes on amidst the stand still, and I guess somehow we all make it through the worst, and look forward to the joy.
Tuesday, November 06, 2012
An Ode To The Rain
Rain, rain go away
Don't come again some other day.
How many times can I say
I'm sick of the rain today?
You're wet and cold and dreary
And make me feel all sneery.
I'm tired of the clouds all teary!
I think they're making me weary...
I'd rather have snow!
And snowy wind that blows snow.
I guess it just goes to show
I'm sick of the rain... Oh.....
Rain would you go away?
I want to go out with just a sweater, okay?
It's getting close to Christmas, by the way.
It's definitely not springy, wet May.
I'm sick of the rain today.
Don't come again some other day.
How many times can I say
I'm sick of the rain today?
You're wet and cold and dreary
And make me feel all sneery.
I'm tired of the clouds all teary!
I think they're making me weary...
I'd rather have snow!
And snowy wind that blows snow.
I guess it just goes to show
I'm sick of the rain... Oh.....
Rain would you go away?
I want to go out with just a sweater, okay?
It's getting close to Christmas, by the way.
It's definitely not springy, wet May.
I'm sick of the rain today.
Monday, October 15, 2012
Playing Catch Up
Here's a few random images since my last blog. Things that kept us busy in the fall...
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| Nicholas built a fence with the help from his brother and dad |
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| He always makes things look easy... |
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| One night we stood in our back yard and watched the smoke from that huge fuel fire. |
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| Aali made a new friend! (a cute little guy I did respite for) |
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| Right after the fence was done, it snowed something fierce! (Oct 5th!) |
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| I made an apple pie for Thanksgiving that looked better than the magazine pie! |
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| And... We all had the flu last week. This was Aali's way of dealing with it... haha... |
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Time Away...
Nicholas and I were able to get away this Labour Day weekend, without Aali and Neko and without any worries of everyday life. It was fantastic! We talked, and laughed and ate great food and took beautiful walks and lazy drives around Clear Lake and reminisced, and thought about our future... It was a bit like old times when we were dating. We didn't do anything special for our anniversary in June, so this was a "better late than never" celebration trip!
Anyway, here are some pictures of our little trip through Riding Mountain...
Anyway, here are some pictures of our little trip through Riding Mountain...
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| Beautiful harvest time fields on the way to Virden |
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| Our first stop, visiting Aunty Jan and Ron |
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| Our destination! |
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| Our "Deluxe" Room |
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| Our view of the stables and park |
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| Sitting on the pier waiting for our ship to come in... haha |
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| The Martese! We went on a dinner cruise... |
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| The cabin inside, complete with a bar! |
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| The beautiful views across Clear Lake |
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| A sweet couple took our picture for us :) |
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| Dinner was fairly good... |
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| And looked amazing! |
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| One of our many walks... |
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| A dock path through the marsh near Clear Lake |
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| It was really cool, even though we didn't see any beavers :( |
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| Back at the resort, the horses were so cool to watch |
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| A look out point we stopped at on our way out of the park going home... It was breath taking. |
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| We had a wonderful time! I think it was actually better than our honeymoon! |
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Life and Death
When someone dies, I think it's natural to start to see death all around us. The children in poor countries, the newest natural disaster, we all know someone who's lost a grandparent or parent. It can be pretty depressing. The media seems to thrive on updating us on deaths, or close to death experiences. I haven't quite figured that out. But on the other hand, there is Life.
I have an uncle who's heart stopped just over a week ago today. But he was miraculously revived with help from his wife and paramedics. He's made an amazing recovery and is now at home! I think it's a miracle. And personally, think it should have made at least the local news but I guess it's not big enough news for them.
For me, on the other hand, it's changed my world! I've started to see life everywhere! Our little monkey babbling away with a smile, the thousands of people bustling around the city, my Grandma and Mother talking about the good ol' times. I'm surrounded by life and living things and it makes me enjoy mine so much more. Death has it's place, but I'm thankful for life today. Life should be celebrated!
I have an uncle who's heart stopped just over a week ago today. But he was miraculously revived with help from his wife and paramedics. He's made an amazing recovery and is now at home! I think it's a miracle. And personally, think it should have made at least the local news but I guess it's not big enough news for them.
For me, on the other hand, it's changed my world! I've started to see life everywhere! Our little monkey babbling away with a smile, the thousands of people bustling around the city, my Grandma and Mother talking about the good ol' times. I'm surrounded by life and living things and it makes me enjoy mine so much more. Death has it's place, but I'm thankful for life today. Life should be celebrated!
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Olympics
Well, I hardly have time to blog. Between going to the cabin, working on our patio, having fun with Aali and watching the Olympics, I don't have much time for anything else!
But here's a quick thought; I love watching people doing what they seem to be created to do. I get this feeling when I'm watching someone be who they are, almost raw, and vulnerable. I see it a lot in the arts. Watching a John Mayer concert one time I got emotional watching him sing (I forget what song) or play this amazing lick, it was obvious this was the best of him. The natural ability, the love of what he was doing and the pleasure and satisfaction he got from it. It moved me to tears.
Watching the Team gymnastics (men's and women's) brought out the same emotions in me. Anyone who knows me is aware of my emotions, I can't help but express myself when I feel a wave of them. I'm okay with it, it's who I am. These athletes, who have worked SO hard, trained SO hard and push the limits on everything they do, AND to have grace and ease while they are performing, or competing is one of the most amazing things to watch. It comes so easy to them, like breathing. And when they perform and out-do themselves you can see the satisfaction and joy and pride, and it's truly inspiring. It quickened my heart, and gave me shivers and made me well up, just like a good song. It made me want to be like them, not what they do, but how they feel about what they do. I'd like to be like that.
But here's a quick thought; I love watching people doing what they seem to be created to do. I get this feeling when I'm watching someone be who they are, almost raw, and vulnerable. I see it a lot in the arts. Watching a John Mayer concert one time I got emotional watching him sing (I forget what song) or play this amazing lick, it was obvious this was the best of him. The natural ability, the love of what he was doing and the pleasure and satisfaction he got from it. It moved me to tears.
Watching the Team gymnastics (men's and women's) brought out the same emotions in me. Anyone who knows me is aware of my emotions, I can't help but express myself when I feel a wave of them. I'm okay with it, it's who I am. These athletes, who have worked SO hard, trained SO hard and push the limits on everything they do, AND to have grace and ease while they are performing, or competing is one of the most amazing things to watch. It comes so easy to them, like breathing. And when they perform and out-do themselves you can see the satisfaction and joy and pride, and it's truly inspiring. It quickened my heart, and gave me shivers and made me well up, just like a good song. It made me want to be like them, not what they do, but how they feel about what they do. I'd like to be like that.
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| Dominique Pegg for Canada |
Thursday, July 12, 2012
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