Just between you and me...

there was this guy in highschool that I had this huge crush on. later I found out that he liked me too, but nothing other than a lot of flirting and hugs came of it. he really was and is a great guy. as I type this he is actually training to become a great actor, or a broadway star or maybe something else. whatever it is, he sure has the talent. anyway, when I still did like him there was a point in our friendship where I was either jealous of the girls he would hang out with, or he wasn't paying any attention to me, or else he was really being a jerk. I'm not quite sure which one it was, but I know that it bothered me enough for me to write this, dedicated to him: (after reading it through again, I think I was intending it to be a rap... so have a funky rap beat in your mind when you read this)

It's called "Mr. Ego"

Woah little ego now, don't fly too high

You know mama's not gonna

catch you out of the sky

You don't know what you're doin

to your peeps all around

Breakin their hearts

Meanwhile destroyin what they found

I thought I knew you
but I didn't
I thought you knew me
but you don't
I thought that you would
change a little
I though that you would
but you won't

You were such a nice guy
Now where did you go?
You left us all alone
hopin that maybe you'd show
You kept us way too long
standing high on our toes
until we all thought a minute
and realized that this blows

I though I knew you
but I didn't
I thought you knew me
but you don't
I thought that you would
change a little
I thought that you would
but you won't

So, after I wrote this he somehow read this and was really hurt by it. I felt really bad, but I was just expressing myself! what else was I supposed to do? anyway, if that guy ever reads this again, I really am sorry, becuase I think you're gonna be great and no silly girl from highschool could change that, even if she was a jerk.